Hebrew Vision News Exclusive
by Miykael Qorbanyahu aka The End Time Scribe
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For I, יהוה your Elohim, am a jealous El, bringing the iniquity of the fathers upon the children to the third and fourth generations of those who hate Me, but showing loving–kindness to the thousands of generations of those who love Me and keep My commandments.
Exodus 20.5-6
Who is to blame for the sex addictions we see suppurating all round us? This licentiousness, growing by the day, thanks to the internet and the mass media, is far deadlier and more destructive than it was half a century ago, before the sexual revolution. Those who are responsible for this sickening depravity are clearly the people who started the sexual revolution. They are the people, moreover, who control the mass media.
Lasha Darkmoon – Sex Plague: The Normalization of Deviance and Depravity
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I remember when I was roughly 5 years of age how I saw my first pornography magazine. I remember how there it was, just flippantly laid out on the floor in my parent’s closet, opened wide, it caught my attention while I was looking for something else, that I encountered “it”. I remember that neither of my parents were present at that moment of discovery and how I made sure that no one was there so I could look at it without distraction or get into trouble. I remember that it was a disconcerting but arousing feeling that came over me as I sat there and allowed the images of these random and unknown naked women in various erotic and provocative positions to get bore into my mind. I remember how as a child, my tender mind could hardly even consider processing what my young, innocent eyes had just witnessed. I remember being scared yet excited at the same time; as if something had awakened within me of which I couldn’t conceive then. I remember thinking that what I had just seen was something that I wanted to see again, and again, and again, but little did I know how the far reaching affects that this seemingly accidental and isolated incident would come to have in my life years later. And now I remember how I lost my innocence as a child at that very moment in time and space.
Unfortunately, my story is not uncommon for both males and females as they transition from childhood into adulthood. Because of this, society can be viewed as a Petri-dish, full of various cultures and subcultures, bacteria and viruses which can both strengthen and weaken the individual and collective immune system of humanity. As such, the potency of one’s immunity is determined by the amount of exposure to pathogens, along with the individual’s systematic resistance that is built up against the potential mortifying affects that pathogens can cause. In this case, my immune system was completely compromised as my exposure to the spirit of lust and fornication was allowed to invade my vessel without challenge or resistance. For many, the exposure and consumption of pornography has presented itself as a typical and normal pleasure of life that is believed to have no negative symptomatic reverberations or resonance in their life. For me, however, the isolation of the aforementioned incident in my exposure to pornography has been identified and diagnosed as the root cause of a pathological condition that I have had to battle for most of my life.
While the seed of sickness was planted in my life at the toddler stage of my development, my entrance into boyhood was marked with an increase consumption of pornography, both soft and hardcore. The softcore porn would come to be viewed on HBO, Showtime and Cinemax with my siblings late at night after my parents had gone to sleep. Around this time, the hardcore images had transitioned from images to videos, as I had discovered VHS videos at my grandparents house where my uncles lived. It was also around this time that masturbation using pornographic material began for me. The physical experience of ejaculation, coupled with the erotic imagery of pornography, created an abberation and distortion of reality within my field of vision. Now hyper-sexualized and clueless to the hidden mysteries of life that are found in the sexual union that exists between a man and a woman, my initiation into the world of sexual escapades and fornication took place when I turned 18.
Prior to losing my virginity, however, I was physically and mentally dysfunctional during the moments that I was intimate with the females that I was with at that time. Whenever the opportunity would arise by which a sexual experience could take place, I would end up physically flaccid. In hindsight, I’ve come to perceive that it was my exposure to pornography that contributed to the dysfunctional responses that I was experiencing. Strange as it seems, the overexposure of the graphic images and videos that I was consuming induced a desensitized state of sexual arousal for me, something that has been clinically proven to happen to individuals who imbibe in the world of porn. In regards to the recent study
…published in JAMA Psychiatry in 2014 [it] found regularly viewing pornography seemed to dull the response to sexual stimulation over time. This means the brain needs more dopamine in order to feel the same ‘high’, which causes a person to watch more porn, German researchers found. And a 2011 study, published in Psychology Today, found that these dopamine spikes mean porn-users start needing increasingly extreme experiences to become sexually aroused. After being exposed to so many lurid images in films, men have become de-sensitised and are increasingly unable to become excited by ordinary sexual encounters. Pornography is creating a generation of young men who are hopeless in the bedroom, the report concluded.
What is so interesting about this physiological dynamic is that the center of the brain which is fed and releases the secretions which causes the responses to take place is the same center that is stimulated by drug and alcohol addiction. With the compulsive act of watching pornography, an addiction like dependence for the visual stimulus and the act of masturbation. This creates a vicious cycle of false and empty gratification that results in a fleeting experience of pleasure which requires a continuous dosage of the visual stimulus to temporarily satisfy the individual participating in this vain act. In fact, the article goes on to say that
When porn addicts watch X-rated material, the ‘addiction’ part of the brain lights up on scans, Cambridge University researchers discovered in 2013. The brains of young men who are obsessed by online pornography ‘lit up like Christmas trees’ upon being shown erotic images, a pioneering study has found. The area stimulated – the part of the brain involved in processing reward, motivation and pleasure – is the same part that is highly active among drug and alcohol addicts. A year later, another study by the same University found sex addicts who watched porn from an early age had three regions of the brain that were more active than their counterparts who were not addicted to sex. The ventral striatum, dorsal anterior cingulate and amygdala – were active in the sex addicts – and experts said these are the regions that are also particularly activated in drug addicts when shown drug stimuli. The ventral striatum is involved in processing reward and motivation, whilst the dorsal anterior cingulate is implicated in anticipating rewards and drug craving.The amygdala is involved in processing the significance of events and emotions.
As we have discussed in a previous article, the processes of the brain require an elevation from the most basic level to its highest tier of consciousness in order to experience full consciousness. For most of my life, I had been held in bondage by the reptilian brain, in scripture called nachash (or the serpent), where I was operating from an instinctual and lower level of consciousness. In providing a self-diagnosis, I surmise that it was my early exposure to pornography which served as a traumatizing and debilitating factor in the arresting of my spiritual development. This, coupled with the trauma of feelings of abandonment resulting from my mother leaving my father due to his addiction to alcohol. These two factors, along with my paternal history, have contributed to the challenges that I’ve had to face as a man.
Interestingly, for nearly the past two decades, I’ve occasionally been able to ascend to the limbic sphere of the brain where even higher capacities of consciousness are found to have their domain. I’ve also been able to enter a few higher consciousness, neo-cortex experiences, but I have yet to remain centered in the higher consciousness due to the bondage of the flesh from which I’ve suffered. Yet recently, after an interesting reconnection that I’ve been allowed to experience, the bondage to lust and desire to engage pornographic material have been absolved. I believe that the reason for this is that I’ve been able to tap into the core of my being in order to rediscover the hidden essence of Heaven that Abba Yah has planted within me. In fact, King Solomon speaks of this reality when he says
[Elohim] has made it all, pretty in its time. Even the ages He has put in their hearts, except that no one finds out the work that Elohim does from beginning to end.
Ecclesiastes 3.11
But being that the eyes are the windows of the soul, many times, when we let our guard down, we allow images, thoughts, sounds and other sensations to enter our soul through our orifices (and most especially the eyes) which drowns out the essence of Heaven within our hearts so that we are unable to find the work that Elohim has given for us to do in this life. I was one who nearly allowed for this to happen. I would binge on pornography when frustrated, or when aroused by a woman who I looked at lustfully as opposed to seeing the beauty of life within her and the image of Most High that she had been given as a daughter of the Creator, though she might be unaware of it herself. In light of all of this, I’ve come to realize that though our childhood has a major impact on our adult life, we must still make a decision to seek the Kingdom of Heaven and all its righteousness. It is as such when finally make this decision to submit our lives to Abba Yah, surrender all of our will until him and offer ourselves as living sacrifices, set-apart and acceptable unto our Father and King through the act of obedience to the Torah that we are able to attain the victory and overcome any and all temptations to which we are exposed, as the blessing of the crown of life is given to those who endure temptation.
For me, it has been a most tumultuous road to arrive at this present point. Even now, there are challenges in life that I am facing as a result of past choices and even the reaping of consequences from those decisions. Though there were predispositions and exposures that were present early in my life, the fact remains that as I matured into adulthood, it became my responsibility to overcome what I knew was a hindrance to the reality and destiny that the Most High has given me to manifest. So eventually, I came to remember who my Creator and Maker has called me to be from the beginning. It took nearly half of a century to remember what I forgot when my innocence was taken from me at the age of 5. But as time would have it, the process of rebirth and awakening was a slow, laborious and painful one; a process that required the making of life changing decisions that has affected individuals and lives that have crossed paths and come about with and through me. It is a most challenging ordeal, but it is also a most necessary one. It requires a death and dissolution, a separation and termination; for death is a necessity and process of life. It is also what we must do in order to break the cycles of despair into which we have been generationally thrust as a result of the sins of our ancestors. It is our responsibility, however, to cause the cycles to come to a cessation. This is what will bring forth the rebirth. This is what the Master informed us of when he told one of the rulers of the Yahudim,
Truly, truly, I say to you, unless one is born of water and the Spirit, he is unable to enter into the reign of Elohim. That which has been born of the flesh is flesh, and that which has been born of the Spirit is spirit. Do not marvel that I said to you, ‘You have to be born from above.’ The Spirit breathes where it wishes, and you hear the sound of it, but do not know where it comes from and where it goes. So is everyone who has been born of the Spirit.
John 3.5-8
Selah…
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